For this “Perspectives”, guest blogger Mia W. shares her story of transformation. Follow Mia on her journey as she transforms into….“A Brand New Mia”
Hello, my name is Mia, I am 30 years old, and I am morbidly obese. I’ve started this blog to share with you my journey to a healthier me. I’ve started this blog to force myself to come face to face with my weight issues. I’ve started this blog to hold myself accountable for… Well, me. That is what my user name is all about – I’m becoming a Brand New Mia.
I have spent the vast majority of my life hating myself, and hating my weight. I placed so much personal value on that number, and every time I started a diet or fitness plan, it was based solely on my own self-loathing. I thought if I could get to a weight that made me happy, I would love myself, and my life would be complete. Every diet failed, the weight came back with a vengeance, and I would hate myself even more.
Now that I am a mom, I realize the importance of raising children that are happy with who they are. I want them to love themselves. I want them to be confidant, to value their lives, to own their mistakes, and to better themselves based on the fact that they know they deserve good things in life. They NEED to love themselves as I never did.
And now, I have finally reached a point where I will better myself because I know I deserve it, too. My journey begins today. I’m learning to love and respect ME, and I’m doing this FOR me, and no one else. Yes, my family will benefit from a healthier me – that is a really awesome bonus – but this isn’t about pleasing them. This is my gift to myself.
I have always struggled with my weight. I managed to stay at a somewhat healthy weight (though always on the heavy side) until going to college, and stayed under/around 200lbs until I had my second child. I gained an insane amount of weight during that pregnancy, and 4+years later I am holding on to every single ounce of that weight. Yup – I weigh almost exactly what I weighed when I was 9 months pregnant. And it shows, the majority of the weight is carried in my gut. I am asked on a regular basis when my baby is due, which is entirely embarrassing. Even more embarrassing is that I started to lie when asked by strangers, making up a due date that I thought was reasonable, only to feel even worse about myself when they replied “Whoa, are you sure there’s only one baby in there?”.
Ouch. That was hard. Taking a deep breath…
If you are still reading this – thank you. I hope you stick with me while I kick my size 22 jeans to the curb. ”
I am so excited to share this with everyone! I started my journey January 22, 2011 at 260lbs. Today I weigh 196.6lbs! I am 5’7”, my goal weight is 135lbs, so I’m about halfway there.
I started out wearing a size 22/24 (and honestly, some shirts were 26/28) and I now fit comfortably in a size 16 (some 14s, but some 18s still, too). I have lost an entire shoe size, going from 10s to 9s. Gone forever are 11.5 inches from my waist, 7 inches from my hips, and 1.25 inches from my neck. I no longer snore, and sleep apnea is a thing of my past. I can wear high heels without horrendous foot cramps. I feel good about myself, I feel strong, I am confidant.
The most important thing I want to tell you about my journey thus far – I am not embarrassed or ashamed to post these photos with you. My journey began with my head – I used to live with so much self hatred, it’s no wonder all previous attempts to lose weight failed, I had no respect for myself. So I had to start loving myself, and I had to learn to love my body (even at 260lbs). Once I loved ME, I started treating myself better, giving my body the movement and nutrition it needed and deserved. And the weight started to come off.
Also – I MUST thank my online MyFitnessPal.com family. I depend on each and every one of you, you pick me up when I am down, you support, motivate and inspire me on a daily basis, you are HONEST with me, you give me great advice – and I wouldn’t have made it this far without you. My real life family has been awesome, too ”
MANIFESTATION: Before and After
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